Diagnosis spotlight: depersonalization/derealization disorder

We all experience dissociation in some way or another. It can be as simple as highway hypnosis, where you suddenly realize you’ve driven for miles without noticing, and as complicated as dissociative identity disorder, formerly known as multiple personality disorder. Somewhere in-between, there is depersonalization/derealization disorder.

First of all, what are depersonalization and derealization?

Depersonalization refers to a distortion in self-awareness. You are, in a sense, unfamiliar with yourself. One typically experiences detachment from the body or the sense that it is unreal. It can even mean watching yourself from outside your body. The self just doesn’t feel real and things might seem like a part of a dream. It can also be watching yourself go about your day and making decisions, but not really feeling in control. Time might also be distorted and there can be physical and/or emotional numbing. 

Derealization is when everything else doesn’t feel real. Your surroundings might feel foggy, distorted, unreal or, again, like a dream. People, places and things that may be familiar seem strange or surreal. It’s hard to fully perceive the world around yourself and it might seem like you are watching everything through a filter of sorts. It can be like living in a bubble. What is around you is very separate from you and it can be hard to fully engage in life. 

Depersonalization/derealization disorder means having episodes of one or both of these. It can be accompanied with a feeling that you’re “going crazy.” There might also be vague physical symptoms, like tingling or lightheadedness. It is often associated with anxiety and/or depression. 

Approximately one-half of adults have had an episode of depersonalization or derealization. It happens. But when it is recurring or even constant, it can become pathological. Onset is almost always before age 25, so it’s something that can be experienced from a very young age. Childhood trauma is considered one of the causes of depersonalization and derealization, but it can happen without it. Symptoms can also be caused by physical conditions or substance use, so those need to be ruled out. Episodes are often preceded by high levels of stress, anxiety, depression, traumatic events (or reminders of them) and/or drug use.

Both therapy and medication are used to treat depersonalization/derealization disorder. In particular, cognitive behavioral therapy allows people to reinterpret the symptoms and psychodynamic therapy can look at unresolved and suppressed internal conflicts. Medication-wise, nothing has been approved specifically for the treatment of this disorder, but anxiety medication and anti-depressants have shown some success. There is also research supporting the use of lamotrigine, an anti-convulsant typically used to treat epilepsy. Using grounding techniques can also be very helpful.

Having the experiences of depersonalization and derealization can be very frightening. But it is a recognized mental health condition and a notable amount of people experience it. If you feel like the symptoms described apply to you, please talk to a doctor or therapist. It is possible to gain control over it enough to where it is not interfering with your life, if it doesn’t go away altogether. 

Have you experienced depersonalization or derealization? What was it like for you? Share your experience in the comments.